Why shouldn't I kill myself?

I bet the number worked until it got drained; the game pass shared for all. Thanks man. I know I don't say hidden things usually but I have a daunting brain injury, I am secretly admitting it, that is why I kept getting banned and keep making a fool out of myself in school, I was once legion in here before the brain injury, now I fail. It sucks. I know but getting a brain injury is the worst thing for one to ask for, that is why no one believes me anymore cause I got a brain injury, I was someone and they banned me no matter what and it was forever and it couldn't be justified either other than foolish lies. Here is a old written style I had, I finally figured out how to cure the 4 people who were poisoned and I already did, they are clones now. However I know I might not sound the same anymore (though I wish I could) but that's because... I had a good life going for me; Camila liked me and now look at me... I'm a fu***** up piece of $*it, I have brain injury and like to think the world would be better off without me, I can't ever seem to think of a way to kill myself, it's so hard, i don't have the courage to do it and no one loves me not even my own family anymore and my friends have lost all respect for me. sad but true.