Why Do I Feel Like This Now?

Because your hormones are going crazy, ******* up your emotions, I thought I was gay when I was younger but now the thought of it repulses me. not that I have anything against gays just the fact of me personally doing something like that. Basically you should just get with this guy, if it doesn't work out move on. But if it does work out then great. Thats the great thing about life, you can **** up as many times as you want, but no matter what there will always be a way out. For the depression see a doctor.