Nervous breakdown? answers please?

I am very sorry. I do not have enough life experience to understand your situation or provide good advice, but I know there are people out there who do. I can't tell you how to get your life back in order other than telling you exactly what you told me not to. If you stop doing drugs, perhaps you will be able to afford a therapist who can help you, but honestly, right now you're killing yourself and I guess there's no way to save you. Again, I am sorry about your family and what you have to go through.